Blogging of a Working Mom

So it's been to long since I last posted but it seems even longer since I started working. I guess starting off by talking about work would be legit in this post. To begin with I will say that I do love my job! It was so hard in the beginning adjusting to waking up early and coming home later in the afternoon having no energy to do anything. I cried several times to Jason just telling him how hard it was to transition to being a 5 year stay at home mom to a full-time working mom! I'm so thankful for his support in all of this. I've had my ups and downs with work but the whole "mature" senses have kicked it most of the time when necessary. I work with cows so that is definitely one of the pits of my job...coming home and HAVING to shower as soon as I walk in the door. But I do love the process in which we dominate the Quality Control Process of Cargill and I'm glad to be apart of this team. I guess I should be saying grateful instead of glad..because grateful is what I am.The kids have adjusted well by now. I know Taylor had a hard time in the beginning starting daycare...but once again I am blessed with wonderful Angie who loves him softly in her care. I trust her with him and now Taylor trusts himself with her. :)) It makes me happy to see and know that my kids now understand how important is it to wake up every morning and be responsible and going to work. There have been times when Brooke will ask me to stay home and not go to work, and as much as I would love to do that, I do explain to her that as an adult I have to take care of my job. And if I don't show up to work as I am expected to I will be letting my co-workers down and I wouldn't be a very reliable employee to my boss. So this is definitely a great opportunity to some what show the kids a good work ethic. We've had mild set backs in our routines but we've managed as a family to get through them. Whether it's someone being sick and needing mommy or Mr.Tyler graduating Kindergarten and me jetting out of work to make it to his assembly...we have definitely made it work. It always seems challenging but we've overcome the odds and I do believe I am an asset to the lab at the same time most importantly the same mommy I used to be. Which was my goal in the beginning. I think one of my biggest misconceptions about working was thinking I was going to be making and having all this money...well let me just say when it rains it pours. Alot of financial responsibilities have kicked in. Like our truck needing some work (the air compressor went out) and credit card payments. BOO! I'm only glad I am now able to help lift those burdens off of Jason's shoulders and we can still manage to pay those things. He would go insane if he was having to make all ends meet by himself alone on one income. Now there is another side of working that I think I somewhat expected...and it's how my environment influences myself. One of my most shameful confessions is my cursing. I have failed and have let lose to much at times and having a sinful mouth. I'm working on it everyday and I've counseled with our Bishop and you know, it's just part of living in the flesh. We're so imperfect and this whole cursing thing has opened my eyes to seeing how even the littlest habits turn into the most shameful examples. So luckily the girls I work with are wanting to change it up to and  are willing to work with me on not cursing so much. We're planning a trip to San Antonio this summer for the kids and taking them to Sea World since they ALL love sharks, whales and everything ocean! I'm really hoping to be at Sea World on Tyler's birthday too. I think it'll all work out. Everything is going great in our lives. There are a lot of places that need improvement but we've gotten there before and I know we'll get there again. What I mean when I say that is that we've hit bumps in our road before but we came out steady. So although working and being a parent, sister, daughter and friend can be overwhelming at times, I know I'll become steady on this journey. I will keep the Spirit close to my heart, I will give my fears and concerns to my Father in Heaven and I will keep in mind always my purpose in this life. I will fail many times, but I know my Lord knows my heart and I trust him. This is his life and I will always turn to him. Well in closing, since it's pretty late and I need to sleep, I will say this "Life doesn't get better, it just gets different." One of my loving Sisters at Church shared this quote in RS one Sunday and it really stuck with me. I even catch myself saying it a lot out loud. We must live striving to always forgive (even when it seems impossible, because it's not impossible) always to love and always to be patient. In Jesus's example. - Kayla.