Forget-me-nots

Today was the Relief Society general meeting. We had baked potatoes and lemonade at church, and they were super good! It's always nice to go to things like this, it enriches my soul and the women are great company. Earlier today Brae came over, while Shayla worked, and played with Tyler. I was so glad that she asked me to watch him because I have been praying hard for my little Tyler, for his social skills and making more friends. I believe this is specifically how Heavenly Father answered my prayer, he provided Tyler a friend to enjoy. Now, it didn't end as well as I would have wanted it to. The boys were playing "mortal kombat" (a game I am not to fond of, but they ARE boys) and long story short, Brae punched Tyler in the eye and Tyler was not to forgiving. :(( Oh well, maybe next play date will go smoother. As for Taylor, he was knocked out on Benadryl!! He has had a little rash on his right wrist and it seemed to me like it may have been spreading. This child of mine always has me on my toes!, he worries me so much it's insane. Anyways, Kendra suggested giving him some benadryl in case he may have gotten into something and had an allergic reaction. I have been putting hydrocortisone cream and corona cream on it, and it seems somewhat ok. I did try to take him to the UMC clinic, but unfortunately they weren't taking anymore patients! I was soo annoyed by this because I took him at 3:20 and the clinic doesn't close until 4pm, but I'm assuming the STAFF wanted to be out by 4. I guess I will take him tomorrow if it is still bothering me, because he sure doesn't act like it's bothering him. Ok, now to move onto Brooke. :)-> During this time of year her asthma seems to flare up more, now why? I'm not to sure, I really think it has to do with the weather. She went to the homecoming game with her friend Bella, and she came home coughing, more like the "asthma" sounding cough...so the breathing treatments have begun! I'm really going to pray hard for the strength to take on whatever is in store for me this winter. It's the best way to be. I just needed to blog what went on this afternoon before I forget. So the RS meeting was good! I loved the talks given by the presidency of the the Relief Society, one of the talks that weighed on me heavy was about "Charity." Charity is the key to bringing people the enjoyment of the gospel. I feel kind of guilty because I know I complain a whole lot of my charity. I take care of my whole family and when I feel overwhelmed I lash out at all of them. I can't believe this. How am I going to be blessed from the charity I do when I react that way when I am upset? How is me being mad bringing them happiness? This is what I think Jesus was telling me tonight. I need to be Christ-Like. It is so important that I act lovingly, because this gospel has done nothing but brought me happiness and peace. Through this gospel I have strengthened my marriage, learned the Plan of Salvation, and I am now striving for an eternal marriage and sealing to my kids and husband! I have such Godly goals it's beautiful. I pray that my kids lead these lives as well. That I can teach them that their bodies are temples and that sex and marriage and everything in between is sacred. I want my children to stay away from temptations that will only bring them sorrow. Having sex with someone you are not married to will bring no blessings. This is blunt, yes I know, but it is the truth. So many diseases are being spread by people having sex with multiple partners not using any protection. I do NOT want this for my children, which is why I pray to teach them faithfully about the Law of Chastity. Another part of the conference this evening that brought joy to my heart was from Elder Dieter F. Uchtdorf, he spoke about understanding all the "whys" that Heavenly Father has given us. I personally think this is perfect, if we can understand the "whys" we will enable ourselves to enjoy the beauty of his love, his plan, his life, his gosepl and most importantly the fulfillment in the life after! I am so excited about this talk, it has totally re-tuned me with the spirit. I want to be obedient, I want to feel the peaceful joy in living as we are asked. :)) I will lean on my loving Father, for His love is honest and pure...and strong. This is where my heart is, and I pray tonight that he allow the spirit strong in my life. -xoxo Kayla

By far the best invesment

So in my post before this one I express my concern for Tyler's potential setbacks as a kindergartner. I definitely acted on it quick. The whole "oh, he's just a boy"  saying just isn't a good enough excuse for me, actually there are NO excuses for me in what Tyler is capable of achieving. I know he just needs more one on one time with a professionally trained tutor. So I had made an appointment at the Sylvan Learning Center in Lubbock with a woman named Kellie, who by the way is the sweetest woman, we went ahead and made out deposit and scheduled his screening/testing for October 6th. We took Tyler with us yesterday to Lubbock, so he was able to go into the center and he seemed really ok with it!! :)) This really put my heart and mind at ease. I was so worried if he would maybe be upset about the whole thing, but he did so good. I am very optimistic about this decision. I know it is what's best for him, and I personally think it is only best to start this sooner than later. It is expensive, but God is providing for us to fund this for him. It is by far the best investment ever. Our responsibility as parents to Tyler is to provide him with the best opportunities in life to help him succeed in living a fulfilled, independent life. This is why we're doing all of this for him. As expensive as the tuition is, my goal is to have him in the Sylvan program the remainder of the kindergarten year. I leave it all in Heavenly Father's hands, I asked him in prayer to help guide me in what I needed to do for Tyler, and this is where he has brought me so far. My mind is at peace with all of it. Another appointment we had in Lubbock was Jason's follow-up at UMC for his work release. He has been released to full duty with no restrictions. His doctor told him that within 6 months his burns will be all gone, so basically he won't have any scarring. I'm amazed how well his body healed from all of this! He had so many wonderful people praying for him and his recovery and I believe their prayers were faithful and heard. <3 Our family has been so blessed in more ways than one. So while we were in Lubbock Jennifer had called me and said she was at the house and we had a letter from the school for Brooke. It turns out my wonderful lady has been recommended as a candidate for the GT program! I am SO SO proud of her! I feel honored, and at the same time somewhat guilty. I didn't really see Brooke at all yesterday because we didn't make it back until late. I really wanted to praise her and just let her stay up as late as she wanted, but I needed her to just go to sleep. I had a million things going on and it was late so she definitely needed to be sleeping. I went to sleep with the saddest heart. Jason did reassure me to just take it one day at a time, so this is just what I'm going to have to do. I just hope I'm sharing myself equally with all the kids, I pray that God pull me through these emotions and help me reassure them. Everything else in our lives are running smoothly and I am thankful. I pray in thanks to our loving Father all of the time. He is taking care of my little family. -xoxo Kayla

Education is key to my kids

I went this morning to have a parent/teacher conference with Ms.Stevens (Tyler's kindergarten teacher) to go over exactly where Tyler is at in his class. I'm always concerned about his speech because for one he has a lisp which is completely ok because I have one to, and then he struggles with his "y, l and w" pronunciation. So this is what I basically found out.

• He scored a 75% in his Rediness Testing (a test that Ms.Stevens told me is very basic testing. The questions are really general from what's your first and last name to recognizing shapes, colors and I'm sure some math)
• When he was asked to count to 30 he counted up to 19. (this is something I know I can help him with at home, so I'm not to worried about his ability to count and not getting the "extra" help) 
• His ability to write his name is progressing smoothly. :))
• He is a very sensitive student. Yesterday while they were working in stations, Ms.Stevens said that Tyler was going ahead of her and that she told him to slow down and to not go onto the next page until she asked him to. Well, Tyler went to the next page so he had to pull a stick, and this just tore him up. :(( It didn't make the situation any better for him or for his teacher. 

• Finally, Ms.Stevens is going to send home a packet for me to fill out to request speech therapy for Tyler 

With all this said, I am still not at peace with how the meeting went. Don't get me wrong, Tyler's teacher is amazing!, and she seems to love what she does. I just know there is more that Jason and I can do for him. I called the Sylvan Learning Center in Lubbock, and we have an appointment tomorrow at 12:30 with a woman named Kelly. This is just the right thing to do for Tyler, his education is important and it is up to Jason and I to provide him with the help he deserves. It will be costly, but we will make it work. His learning is my priority. He will be screened and the results will determine exactly what he needs help on. My expectations for my kids are all high, and it varies with each of them. Brooke made a 88 on her math progress report and I made it clear for her to push that up to an A, because she is an A student. She made the A Honor Roll all year as a first grader, so I know she is capable of doing it again this year. I asked her if she needed help, and I will eventually have a parent/teacher conference with Mrs.Marks as well. I just need to see exactly how she is doing after this first 6 weeks. Well this pretty much wraps up my Tuesday morning. I am so tired! Being up at 6am isn't the funnest, but I know I'll sleep so good tonight. :)) I love my little family and we're definitely blessed with amazing children. -xoxo Kayla 

Making mountains out of mo hills....

Before I go to sleep, I need to just get some things out on blog. To begin with, I am not a fan of  "fighting" on facebook. To me it's so much easier for people to say things to someone else through messages, because your not actually seeing this person, therefore it can possibly ruin relationships with people. From personal experience, it is so damaging. :(( So what can I learn from this? I think Heavenly Father is wanting to me to truly forgive, to be like him. Ok, so I really do think I have allowed the spirit to guide me in what to say to Jason's brother's girlfriend. Our relationship has not been good for a long time. I don't take full blame for what has happened between her and I, but I will take up the forgiving process in this situation. I really do think I have forgiven her even though she hasn't really asked for it. But today I was talking to Emily about how sometimes people (our husbands to be specifically) may be telling us the things we wish they would tell us, in -their- own way or manner. This makes perfect sense with Lorrie. She has messaged me kindly now on facebook, so maybe this is her way of asking me if we can patch things up. I kind of had a guard up when I got her message, but it didn't feel right. So I then knew that I needed to just -let it go.- I can do all things through Christ, so I know this will work out great. I just needed to blog it to digest it I guess. So on another note, I have been really thinking hard about Tyler and his speech. I think I think about it so much it just worries me. I am going to pray again before I go to sleep for God to lead me the way with him. How to help him, so he is progressing with the kids in his school. I love my Tyler baby and I my goal is to help him achieve high. :) Well before I exit this and get upset I'm coming to a close- xoxo Kayla

Thankful

This morning we all were blessed to wake up to rain everywhere! I woke up on my own thinking it was around 6:30 but when I went to check the time it was 7! I couldn't believe how dark it was outside, but I just love this cold, cloudy, wet weather. There are puddles everywhere. I know it sounds dumb, but we have had very LITTLE rain and moisture in Plainview. It has been the first drought that I have lived through, and it has given me an appreciation for the rain we are blessed with. It's funny how I never seem to think of things like that, but when were going to Lubbock a few weeks ago I was looking at all the dry fields, and how none of the grass on the median was green, I began to think about the farmers and how they're probably really struggling this year in growing their crops. It saddens my heart and I pray that Heavenly Father watch over us all and provide for our families. So, waking up to this kind of weather really allows me to feel some sort of happiness. It's funny because you would think summer time would bring you that fulfillment, but this summer was to hot and to dry to even somewhat enjoy. We stayed inside the majority of the time! I do however love the cold fall weather. :)) Ok, so on another note, we have new Missionaries and their names are Elder Soffe and Elder Pulcifer (I'm not sure about the spelling on his name) and they are so amazing. It's been a long while since we have had missionaries that bring the spirit with them. I am in NO way criticizing either. I am only saying it's been awhile for me since I have had that welcoming feeling for the missionaries. This is all God's timing, not ours. He gave me a break to myself and in the time I feel personally that I need the missionaries in my life, he provides these two for me. We discussed a lot yesterday and we got to know each other more on personal levels, which is very important in order to be accomplish a lot of about the gospel. Being a mormon is not easy in any way. The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints is probably the only church with tremendously high standards. Through my testimony I believe that living for Christ is not supposed to be easy. We will be challenged in more ways than others, but those challenges are put in our lives for two reasons : 1. To bring you closer to Heavenly Father or 2. To drift you from our Father (like Satan wants) and sink you in the unhappiness of the world. I really don't think or believe there are any other options as far as when we're going through good or bad times. When my life is happy and content I pray in thanks. I thank our Heavenly Father for blessing me with these happy emotions. Now when my life is challenging and my heart is burdened to the deepest of sadness, I pray in hope. I ask him to help me get through these times, to show me how to deal with and to allow the spirit to strongly guide me for my family, and he is so faithful in doing so. My love for Jesus Christ and our Father in heaven is so strong and so beautiful that I feel motivated to strive in harder to be the example for my kids and my family so they can recognize the beauty and fulfillment we get when we have a close relationship with Jesus. There are times my mouth is nasty, I am in a bad mood, or I don't wake up on Sunday and go to church. This is ok, because the guilt of not doing the right thing weighs on my and refocuses me. I then miss in partaking of the sacrament and I must carry the burdens of last week onto the next Sunday. It really humbles me, but it teaches me as well in to where I really need to be in order to feel cleansed and strong. You know, Jason and I have even been praying at night together and it really gives me hope. I know he wasn't brought up with the basic principles of church and baptism, but I will just keep praying the Jesus show him the light. I love him deeply, I really think I love him more than I allow myself to believe..but I know this gospel is true and I hope to show him that through love. These were just some thoughts I needed to blog, but I'm going to go shower since Taylor is still sleeping!!

Care-Taker (Noses and beads)

So yesterday was just another typical "mommy" day, waking up and getting the kids off to school. I was  lucky enough to come home with Taylor still sleeping, so I went ahead and took advantage of that and went and showered. So by the time I get done showering and all Taylor is already awake. So I told him to sit down by the tub while I did my make-up. I kind of saw him from the corner of my eye get up and go to the room. I just assumed this little boy was playing with his trains or something. About five minutes later he comes into the bathroom saying "nose, nose" in a very whiny way, so I get up and check his nose. Sure enough I couldn't see anything, so I brushed it off and told him he was ok. When we were done getting ready we went to United so I could buy some stuff for Brooke and Tyler's lunch. While we were in United Taylor kept sneezing up a storm! I then started thinking "maybe he really does have something in his nose!" There was so much to do though at that time I think Taylor and I both were distracted to even really pay enough attention to what was going on with his nose. Well then it was off to have lunch with grandma Josie and that's when I told her about Taylor complaining about his nose. She looked up it and said she might think something was up it and that I should take him to the doctor just to be on the safe side. Ugh, I was like "man, another $20 co-pay and what if it's nothing but allergies?" I however listened to my mommy-intuition and made an appointment to see Dr.Turner, boy was that not a GENIUS decision! Turns out little stinker had a bead in his nose!! It was horrible holding him down while Doc tried to remove the bead. Especially because his tiny nose was beginning to bleed. It broke my heart, but I knew we had to get this bead out! Doc is amazing, he didn't give up and he managed to get the bead out. I love him, and I love him even more for the family doctor he has been to many generations of families. I was sure praying thanks that Heavenly Father watched over this little stinker boy Taylor. :))  During all of this I came to thinking how amazing it is that as mothers we just know when something needs checking. How we have this extra special sense in our children and loved ones. I am not this way with just my kids, but with myself and everyone close around me. I really believe my role is a care-taker role. It's just what I do. I wonder what life is going to be like for me considering Taylor is our last child. He will eventually grow out of his toddler stage and become more independent, needing mommy less. :(( I'm really considering nursing, but it's further down the road. Jason and I have some plans for this coming year that we're very optimistic about. We really want to pay off the truck and save, save, SAVE so we can have a down payment for this home and qualify for a home mortgage loan. I know there are things that still need to be done in this house, but with time it will come. We just want to enable ourselves to be home owners and start our own little nest. I have looked at other houses around the area and this house (pepaw's) is just the only one I truly love. I love the way the windows in the front are and the drive way he has replaced. So this is our main goal. :)) Well I have to pick up around the house because the missionaries are coming over at 1:30 and Taylor and I are not bathed yet. I just needed to post about Taylor's nose experience while it's still fresh in my mine. -xoxox

Kayla

Family tree, Taylor & Rockstar Day

 So these pictures are somewhat in order of how our week went last week. The first week of school Tyler's kindergarten class was assigned a project that was based on the theme for the month which was "All about Me". We were to make a "family tree". I'm so glad we were given two weeks to do it. For two WHOLE weeks I contemplated on different ways to make his family tree. I wanted Tyler to love it, to be proud of it, and most of all I didn't want to look like the parent who halfheartedly did their kids family tree. So this is is how it came down, Tyler loves super heroes right now, so it was obvious to me what would make him proud!! Of course to create ourselves as super heroes!, and I think I was his super hero for making this. Tyler was so proud of it, aww how honored I am. Ms.Stevens told Jason she absolutely loved it too, so there is my A+. :)) It's a keeper and I am planning on framing it. So since I am already talking about Tyler and school, I had to have a parent-teacher meeting with Ms.Stevens last week too, I think on Wednesday or Thursday, because Brooke had told me that

Ms.Stevens had told her that Tyler cries during class! I was so UPSET that I didn't know this. :( That following morning I made an appointment to visit with his teacher about this. After talking with her for about 20 minutes, I really  came to think he is just so tired. She said he is asks her everyday when is nap time, and my Tyler is definitely a fan of sleep. So we just decided to maybe start putting him to bed an hour earlier than what we were already doing, which is 7:30!! Jason couldn't believe how much sleep Tyler may need, but it for sure runs on Jason's side of the family, because my family are not all-day sleepers. I'm really hoping this week goes good for him. Now, in between family trees and -Rockstar- day Taylor and I had a little photo-op! I recently had my bangs cut, and this is the only time that I have managed to style them the way I wanted. So I had to capture the moment. I'm not liking the whole cleavage part of the picture, but oh well I think the picture was beautiful. Taylor is progressing so much in his talking. He is able to make things clear to us in little cut up sentences. Last night tia Jennifer asked him to throw some trash away for her in the kitchen, but the light was off. So Taylor tells Jason "daddy, light, light on" while pointing to the light switch. So I know he is grasping how to ask for things. I am so excited for him to conquer the english language.

I made a comment to Jason this morning before he left to work that "this is Taylor's world, and we live in it!", this was not a understatement at all. I wouldn't change it for the world. Now down to Rockstar Day! <-----------Brooke told me that Friday was Rockstar day and she wanted to dress up. So Jennifer took her Thursday night to some tu-tu store that I didn't even know was in Plainview, and bought her this adorable pink tu-tu and pink feather hair clip. Brooke already had this spunky beaded guitar shirt that Kendra had given her that Kyra out grew! I am so glad we pulled it off under $10! (I think) Tyler however didn't want to have anything to do with this day. He didn't want to dress up at all, which is why I don't have any pictures of him. :/ That boy for sure doesn't like attention (he must get that from his Daddy, because I loved attention growing up) <3 Jason started work on Thursday and I really miss him. He is working 9-5 and it sucks because I was so used to having him home for 3 weeks.  I know life goes on and it's only a sign of his healing. We have to get back on track sooner or later and I would much have it sooner. His shoulder is still really pink, but the rest of his burns are almost gone. He is a champ., and I miss my champ. Taylor's birthday is this coming Friday, so this is my new goal for this week. Oh the joys of motherhood. I have tons more to blog about and will hopefully get a chance tonight. I'm waiting on the mail, and I need to shower after. I pray for a blessed day, and for patience and peace to get through it. :) Love-xoxoxo Kayla.

I feel like I'm falling for Fall

Yesterday and today have been so wonderful to enjoy! The weather has been so amazing. Yesterday it was cloudy all day and nice and cool. Today is still nice and cool, but the sun is out. I really don't mind it. The way to sun is during the day (I really don't know the exact term to explain how I see the sun) is my reminder of the sweet, spicy feeling of fall. Oh how I love this season! I love the whole decor of pumpkins, hay stacks, the leaves changing into pretty yellow, red and orange colors, falling from the trees. It's all just so beautiful! Now the scents are even better! I wish wal-mart would sell the whole spice scented candles and plug-ins all year long, but I've always noticed it's not until this time of year that they go on sale. Which I guess is ok because it makes me appreciate these smells even more. Yesterday at church during primary, sister Masters made a comment that stuck with me..it was something like this "I've always said after the month of August up until Christmas goes by so fast!". This is so true and I never really thought about until she said that, but it's so true! Time does fly by super fast from here until December...ugh I wish this season would just stretch out. Our summer this year was so sad! We had NO rain and just hot, DRY weather. NO FUN!!! I think it was Friday evening we did get some rain!! Oh how I loved every minute of it. Jason and I were taking the kids to Emilie's house so we could go to dinner, just us two, and it was raining while we drove over there. I told Jason I wish we could just sit in the explorer and just listen to the rain all night!! Rain to me is romantic. I'm very thankful we were blessed to have that short reminder of how beautiful rain is. :) I really am optimistic that this season is going to be a good one. Our families seem to be pulling together, for the best. I talk to Jamie frequently and it seems they're all adjusting to Hawaii pretty well. I don't know when we'll all see each other again, being that it is real expensive to fly, etc. But they're doing well and that's all that matters. I was looking through some old pictures, and I came across some pictures of Jason and Jamie swimming with the girls at the YMCA when I was pregnant with Tyler. Oh how miss those days! Of Jamie and Kyra spending the weekends with us, and our routine of Brooke swimming with Daddy on Saturdays and spaghetti and Urban Cowboy on Sundays! Such great memories I cherish deeply. Even the memories we're making now, time we have together! When we lived in Houston Jason was always working! I never had time with him, I would never choose that life or money over the life we're living now. I'm thankful that my dad has shared his home with us, to allow me to stay home with the kids while their young. I'm sure I'll eventually find a job, maybe go back to school..but right now I'm glad to focus on the family. I read one time from another stay-at-home mom that staying home with our kids is such a short season! To embrace it full force..and I hope I'm doing it right. I couldn't imagine working or going to school while Jason was in an accident at work! I would of given up, and I think our Heavenly Father prepared me for this in more ways than other (I have posted about this already). Our lives are finally back in routine and Jason is almost fully independent. His skin has already grown back, his shoulder is still sore from time to time but he is way over the whole "open-flesh" part of his burns. His arms look kind of weird, he has scarring on his elbows that look like that skin (pigment) disorder..but I really think it will go back to normal with time. From when the accident first happened to now, we have been taken care of! We have come together real well, and we're all so thankful. Grandma Josie and Taylor are on their way home today, they should get here around 6-ish and I am SO SO SO ready to have my baby chilenos back! Shoot, this has been a long "day and half" that Jason claims! But I miss him, and I'm ready to have my eggs all in one basket. Well I better get Brooke, Tyler and myself showered and put together. I plan on taking them to the park since the weather is so nice. Jason can't go because he cannot be in the sun or outside for to long since his skin is still very weak. :( But life has to go on. LOVE LOVE- KaYlA xoxox

Peaceful Heart

This afternoon my mom decided that she would take Taylor with her to Dallas. She is taking my grandma to Dallas because her cancer doctors are there, and my aunt Nora will take her to see the specialist and I think my grandma is going to visit there for a month. My mom will come back Monday (since it's Memorial holiday) and she'll start her new job at UMC Family Medical clinic! Yay for grandma Josie. <3 This is Taylor's first out-of-town trip without mommy! I am missing him so much, but I know it's good for him, and he is 2 yrs old so it's not like I'm letting my little baby go. Ugh, the guilt that weighs on us moms. I just feel as a mom it comes natural to just worry, to miss our babies (kids) when they're not with us. My mind is all directed on the kids (and other family members in need of me and my caring). The duties of a full-time stay at home mom are tremendous. I have to stay on top of everyone's laundry (not so much Jason's because he does his own), cooking, serving and cleaning meals, cleaning house (which my ocd has softened up TONS) and monitoring everyone's health and whatever extra comes with that. I have to keep up with Brooke's asthma daily, which means giving her, her medicines and treatments daily to now focusing on Tyler and Taylor's possible nasal allergies. This is because both of my boys are getting the dark circles around their eyes and they're kind of "sunken" in..it doesn't look horrible, but since Dr.Watkins brought this to my attention I am going to go ahead and try his method of treating this. I pray it works, and I pray it will benefit the boys. So you tell me, do I not revolve around my kids and husband? haha I love it though, and I feel blessed to love it so much! Even more, I'm blessed my dad has welcomed us into his home..and honestly, it is home! Our home, all of us. This is our life and we love it. My family is really coming together, inside out. This means Jason's family too. It'll all work out in God's time and my heart is where it needs to be. <3 LOVE LOVE LOVE. I'm at peace with where our lives are. This IS his life and his plan, we just need to keep living for him. Never forgetting our purpose and our promises in this life. I pray for the spirit to always be so strong in presence with me. Well I'm done making the kids their late lunch (baked potatoes) so I'd better get in the shower for our Wal-Mart run. More Later. Xoxo

New Month, better Faith & Hope

We have finished the second week of school! Sadly Tyler isn't adjusted at ALL!! He had been complaining on and off about his ear hurting, but he never ran any fever and he wasn't consistently whining. So I didn't think it was something bad enough to take him to the doctor and pay $20 for nothing. This morning however, Jason woke me up ( I guess he decided to be sweet and let me sleep in until 8 ) telling me Tyler was crying about his ear. I then just figured I'd better get up, get ready and take him to the doctor. Well as I was getting ready I called Dr.Turners office to get Tyler in as a walk-in, and it just so happened they were closed! I ended up taking him to Dr.Watkins at West Texas Family Medical center..which I'm so happy I did. So here is the diagnosis: 1. He has double ear infections (being treated with 10mls of amoxicillin 2x's daily) 2. his nasal passageways are swollen (being treated with nasal spray once daily in each nostril) 3. He has been put on claritan 5mg once daily for allergies. Dr.Watkins brought to my attention "Allergic Shiners" in Tyler. This is black eye similarities in a child, or dark circles under the eyes. Now for one, it wasn't but like two days ago that I had told Jason that I noticed Tyler having dark circles under his eyes, and maybe I needed to take him to the eye doctor! Well come to find out, this is due to nasal allergies. :( Oh how sad this made me..but I'm just grateful we now know what we need to start doing. I am so blessed to not have to work, my kids are definitely a full-time, 24/7 responsibility that I take such pride in. I really pray that we can help Tyler, and for God to lift this guilt off of me, that I didn't realize Tyler has/is suffering nasal allergies, or allergies in general. It's just so difficult because Tyler doesn't complain! I feel guilty that maybe I put to much fear or time into Brooke being that she asthma. At the end of the day, I know that I love these kids more than anything and that it breaks my heart for any of them to not be 100% healthy. So this is what happened this morning. Secondly, my poor Tyler isn't adjusting to being at school all day. He made a comment today to Melanie "my daddy don't come and pick me up after lunch", this BROKE my heart! haha my little boy is still stuck in pre-school mode. :( He has asked me several times today "mommy, I don't go to school no more?" Ugh, this isn't getting any easier. I hope he will just realize that this is his routine and make the best out of it. Tyler will definitely be in mommy's prayers for sure. Now about Miss. Brooke, she said the most cutest thing today in the truck "Mommy,I wish I was Mother Nature so I could make it rain." This was adorable and genius. My little lady will change the world, her smile ministers to so many. She is my blessing. Taylor, oh Mr.Taylor, he has been a little challenging here lately with the whole tantrums, etc. I did expect this, he is our baby and this is natural for his age. I pray for patience in handling him, but he is precious and I love that his vocabulary is being challenged daily..and I love even more hearing how he interprets language. I need to video tape it, it's so CUTE. My baby Jason is healing more, and I'm loving, loving him! <3 he overwhelms my heart with such love and joy. Oh how our Lord is loving and promising. More to be posted later....-Kayla