Peaceful Heart

This afternoon my mom decided that she would take Taylor with her to Dallas. She is taking my grandma to Dallas because her cancer doctors are there, and my aunt Nora will take her to see the specialist and I think my grandma is going to visit there for a month. My mom will come back Monday (since it's Memorial holiday) and she'll start her new job at UMC Family Medical clinic! Yay for grandma Josie. <3 This is Taylor's first out-of-town trip without mommy! I am missing him so much, but I know it's good for him, and he is 2 yrs old so it's not like I'm letting my little baby go. Ugh, the guilt that weighs on us moms. I just feel as a mom it comes natural to just worry, to miss our babies (kids) when they're not with us. My mind is all directed on the kids (and other family members in need of me and my caring). The duties of a full-time stay at home mom are tremendous. I have to stay on top of everyone's laundry (not so much Jason's because he does his own), cooking, serving and cleaning meals, cleaning house (which my ocd has softened up TONS) and monitoring everyone's health and whatever extra comes with that. I have to keep up with Brooke's asthma daily, which means giving her, her medicines and treatments daily to now focusing on Tyler and Taylor's possible nasal allergies. This is because both of my boys are getting the dark circles around their eyes and they're kind of "sunken" in..it doesn't look horrible, but since Dr.Watkins brought this to my attention I am going to go ahead and try his method of treating this. I pray it works, and I pray it will benefit the boys. So you tell me, do I not revolve around my kids and husband? haha I love it though, and I feel blessed to love it so much! Even more, I'm blessed my dad has welcomed us into his home..and honestly, it is home! Our home, all of us. This is our life and we love it. My family is really coming together, inside out. This means Jason's family too. It'll all work out in God's time and my heart is where it needs to be. <3 LOVE LOVE LOVE. I'm at peace with where our lives are. This IS his life and his plan, we just need to keep living for him. Never forgetting our purpose and our promises in this life. I pray for the spirit to always be so strong in presence with me. Well I'm done making the kids their late lunch (baked potatoes) so I'd better get in the shower for our Wal-Mart run. More Later. Xoxo